Two weeks ago, my sister came to Kuching as school holiday began so she wanted to jalan-jalan first to Kuching before going back to Kudat and thank God that there is somebody willingly to offer a helping hand as i really cannot stand the smell of food being cooked. And then the following week, my father, mother, brother and youngest sister came to Kuching to visit me.
To my surprise, they brought together bintanok dalai (a type of traditional food ; mashed corn that wrapped and steamed in corn husk) and steamed corn all the way from my kampong prepared exclusively by my grandmother. Actually, the story went like this ; a few weeks before they came, i asked my mother how to do the bintanok dalai because i saw my cousin posted a picture of bintanok dalai and i have been wondering how it is made. The last time i saw my grandmother prepared it when i was only 4-6 years old so i cannot remember how my grandmother did it. So i asked my mother but they mistakenly thought that i was craving for it. Haha. Nevertheless, i am still glad they brought all the way from Kg. Kumbatang, Kudat to Kuching. 😁
They stayed here for approximately 5 days ( they arrived here midnight Thursday and went back to Sabah Tuesday night) and during their stay here, i was pampered like a kid! Haha. Anak, you are one lucky grandkid. Everyone is eager to take care of you. LOL. But too bad that on Saturday during their stay, i was sick and basically cannot leave my bed since i vomit continuously since that morning and i have to escape church. And it was all because of the ferrous fumarate that i have to take since i have a low hb in my blood. Too bad, i am not compatible with it and i know that i have to change it before my blood hb will be lower than before. On a bright side, i spent time very well for next Sunday, Monday and Tuesday with my family which actually leaving me very sad when its time for them to go home. From the sound of television is on early morning, the smell of breakfast; first thing when i opened my eyes, sound of computer game my brother played literally for whole day, the sound of laughing to a gossip between my sisters, sound my husband with his game..to the sound of fan and lizard on the ceiling (Plus, there is no one will serve healthy meal for me anymore😢). I literally cried myself to sleep after i sent them back to Sabah. It hurts so bad that it feels like my mother did not buy something that i wanted so bad when i was a kid. Maybe i am being hormonal because you know before this, its very hard for me to feel homesick even if i have been away from my hometown since i was 13 years old.
However, i know this is the sacrifice that i must endure. Being a wife to somebody else means i have to priorities my own small family. Even if i only have N to take care of right now but its just too sad when the thought of leaving him working hard here alone to make money to ensure that there's always food on the table and no one is waiting for him at home come to my mind. I love my family but now, i have my husband and i have to priorities him.
Which leads me to, dear my friends..
When you have time now to spend with your family; your father, mother, sisters and brother, appreciate it. Now the trend goes like this, when you see your friends all are getting married and have kids, you also want to do the same. Cannot wait to get married, being with your husband all the time can manja-manja all the time. But the reality is not easy as you thought, honey. I am not regretting myself married to N but the fact that i realized i have so little time that i have spent with my family hurts me so much. If i can turned back the time, i am still going to marry N but not so fast like this. I want to spend more and more time with them. Everytime i have chance to go back Kudat, i will go back without thinking excuses. I have to be honest, i want to get married because of the trend itself as everyone around me is getting married. I was very confident that i can live without my family but you know i am still struggling to adapt being a wife as well as to control the finance so that at the end of the month, N and i still have money to buy food. My advice to you my friends, time with your family is a treasure. Before being owned by somebody else, please just enjoyed your zaman bujang.
I have not mentioning much about the progress of my pregnancy but anyhow, i have to record this : my due date is changed after the last scan. From, 21/06/17 to 01/07/17. Such a nice date, right?
Until then, good night.
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| After we sent my brother to college. |
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| Never thought i would missing the laughter of this two monkeys. |
